I am no longer a patient. I am now an impatient.
True: No more PICC line! yay! So, officially, I am no longer an “infusion patient” which I loooooooooove. My arm has a belly-button instead of an aching plastic line in it.
I am impatient, though. Not the characteristic I’d like to be known for. You’d think I’d have learned to be by now. A year ago I was all gung-ho for starting treatment that “was going to work!” and here we are now…the tilt-a-whirl still spinning. I’ve not blogged as much, not researched any more in a while. I’m tired of it all.
A new hope on the horizon…Idaho…April… can’t come soon enough, for my aching husband, my sick-bellied son, my emotional daughter, and my spinning-headed self. The ever-present “but” lingers. But, it may not fix it. But it may not work at all. But it will take more work. More time. More. And all of that is true.
Anyway, today is today, and we have to get through IT first. Just like we did yesterday. And we will tomorrow, Lord willing. So that’s the thing. It call all be for naught, or it can all be for good. It just depends on whether we’ve given it to God Almighty to control, use, bless.
“And we believers also groan, even though we have the Holy Spirit within us as a foretaste of future glory, for we long for our bodies to be released from sin and suffering. We, too, wait with eager hope for the day when God will give us our full rights as his adopted children,[j] including the new bodies he has promised us. 24 We were given this hope when we were saved. (If we already have something, we don’t need to hope[k] for it. 25 But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently [doh!]and confidently.)
26 And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. 27 And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers[l] in harmony with God’s own will. 28 And we know that God causes everything to work together[m] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Romans 8:23-29, italics added.
Impatiently, but confidently,